On a serious note before I go any further. I am note saying that there won’t be jokes and sarcastic remarks..lol…Because there will be…it’s how I deal with the serious shit.
Over the years I have been plagued with health issues and not the nice ones either. Oh no,I can’t get those. I have to go big. I d catch a small cold, nope not me..
There will be time when I may not post for awhile or there may be some times when I post when I seem like a am not making any sense at all. I will start off decent en but then I will just slide off into a world of jibberish. Don worry I am not having a stroke, I am just going through a MS flare. The flare will entail a “fog stage” and I will just lose all sense of normalcy.
I w forget how to talk, how to use my tongue what I was saying, what I was thinking, and how I was going to express it.. I will get frustrated with myself and probably cry.. I may even walk away from the situation.
Let’s back track here..
I have a form of aggressive multiple sclerosis. It attacks the central nervous system. The link between my brain to my nerves is interrupted.. So I forget what I am supposed to do My brain says “pick up your foot” but my foot does not get that message so I end up tripping or falling.
This is just one example. There are so many. Things we take for granted on a daily basis. Things like bathing, eating, speaking, going to the bathroom, walking, standing, writing, comprehending instructions, carrying things, body temperature, thinking, and so much more…
You experience depression and anxiety. You struggle with panic attacks And you feel so guilty for not being able to do the things that you used to do. It ruins your self esteem not to mention your pride. You takes a long time to get diagnosed because the symptoms are often confusing and mistaken for so many others things.
It could be years years before you get a solid diagnosis. The struggle is real and it is long. I am one step from a wheelchair and I can no longer bath myself. I can barely dress myself and I can’t stand for more than ten minutes. I blackout a lot and I fall almost every day. Ihhave no balance whatsoever.
But you know what? The state of Florida says that I am able to work.
That is for another day.. … ..